Love and Loss

The element of loss cannot be denied. Even in a mathematical equation, loss is still tangible and significant.

There are times when happiness and contentment leaves us dreamy. We go on with daily life with no worries. Troubles afar. Life is pure bliss. But then there are events that could change the direction of how one sees life. An event might be very insignificant compared to the bubble bliss. Insignificant as it may be, any small thing can lead to bigger or even enormous and drastic change. 

Living with someone for years. Knowing his every move. Hearing him breathing at the break of daylight. Watching him sleep soundly and warm. Feeling his hand enveloping yours. Feeling his warmth as he lulls you to sleep. But then, like a carpet pulled from your feet, you lose balance when suddenly all is taken away with a flick of your fingers.

There were signs. It was just that the bubble bliss left you blinded. There were last words that seem to be a joke, but were really meant for you to listen and understand. He might be denying his pain and distress to go through with the difficulty without adding burden to you. It was just love, no worries.

Grief. Love. Death. Life. They get intertwined and fuzzy when you get to think about.

But loss is loss. It leaves a hollow aching in the chest that can only be overcome by shedding tears that seem to flow out of nowhere. It can blur your vision and surprise you when you shed them. When eating. When washing the dishes. When walking and humming to yourself. When you’re alone. When you’re in a crowd. Tears cannot be shy.

The element of loss is tangible. It is undeniable. And will truly be irreplaceable.